pause (take two)


I love the pause button. I love the way that you can stop something momentarily, and restart as if nothing has happened in the interim. I love the way that all of a sudden the movie or music no longer exists, and all is replaced by pure silence.

Lately, I have been dreaming of a great big pause button for life. You know like a scene in The Matrix, where Keanu Reeves stops and everything revolves around him in slow motion, and all of a sudden he can see it all clear and he has clarity.

But the reality is that life doesn’t have a pause button. And in my life moments of pure silence are so rare as to be almost non-existent.

And yet, I find myself saying … and yet …

and yet … there is the gracious friend who offered to add my two to her brood to give me some time by myself.

and yet … there is the old friend who cancelled her other plans to just ‘be’ with me.

and yet … there are moments of fleeting silence and brief clarity.

and yet … there are moments where I look up and see the clouds illuminated by the setting sun, and I remember that (unlike Keanu Reeves) life doesn’t revolve around me, and it gives me pause.